jtucker
11-02-2006, 06:11 PM
Today was very unusual and very hard for me, it was as if satan stepped up all his efforts he could to get me to be prideful and think on the wrong things, But i thank Jesus for being my saviour for dwelling in me as his tabernacle. keeping me in His Word by grace through faith in Jesus Christ.
So the day begins with Lucy a woman in my history 111 class telling me i should date her daughter, the whole thing started because i went in early and was sitting in the room reading the Bible, and she was asking if i was in a seminary or studying it on my own.
i told her i don't believe in seminaries upon which she agreed and told me she hated them herself. and we were talking about how the youth either just don't care about God or try but are to ashamed to say anything, and then she told me i should date her daughter because her daughter is a christian as well. it was somewhat akward and took a turn for the worse when a girl who practices wicca came in and had this huge hickey in which Lucy pointed out,i will spare you guys the details i suffered as they came across my ears.
then my teacher came in with this huge smile and told me i looked very spiffy and had this look in her eye that was well to say the least was re-affirming what i already knew from previous times which is not a good thing at all. i went to the slc to work on the computers to print something out and was greeted by the lustful stare of a young girl, thankfully my ride arrived and i left as fast as i could.
i had to come back at 3:30 and was walking to the library when form behind me i heard whistling but i decided to just keep walking pretending i didn't hear it. but alas i heard a girl from behind me yell after me and so i turned to say hi and she flat out told me i looked gorgeous so i just told her thanks and that it was kinda embarassing and walked away as she entered her class.
today is one of those days i just want to go home and not come out, i mean to be complimented is nice and all and i can handle that but to be gawked at and hit on and looked at with lustful glances is horrible, it makes me feel dirty and shameful in a way, i mean i know in this last age it's not unusual for girls to be so crazy, seeing as this wicked generation is controlled by spirits (the whole satan's eden thing)but man it's like the girls are just as bad as if not worse than the guys. i just really fight with becoming upset and letting it get to me.
this was weighing heavy on my heart and needed a place to rant about it. i don't see myself as even remotely goodlooking, or handsome or anything to even call home about (I have some self esteem issues when it comes to looks). i just ask you all pray for me on this, as it has made my day the type where i dread walking down the hall because of what will be said or done next.
So the day begins with Lucy a woman in my history 111 class telling me i should date her daughter, the whole thing started because i went in early and was sitting in the room reading the Bible, and she was asking if i was in a seminary or studying it on my own.
i told her i don't believe in seminaries upon which she agreed and told me she hated them herself. and we were talking about how the youth either just don't care about God or try but are to ashamed to say anything, and then she told me i should date her daughter because her daughter is a christian as well. it was somewhat akward and took a turn for the worse when a girl who practices wicca came in and had this huge hickey in which Lucy pointed out,i will spare you guys the details i suffered as they came across my ears.
then my teacher came in with this huge smile and told me i looked very spiffy and had this look in her eye that was well to say the least was re-affirming what i already knew from previous times which is not a good thing at all. i went to the slc to work on the computers to print something out and was greeted by the lustful stare of a young girl, thankfully my ride arrived and i left as fast as i could.
i had to come back at 3:30 and was walking to the library when form behind me i heard whistling but i decided to just keep walking pretending i didn't hear it. but alas i heard a girl from behind me yell after me and so i turned to say hi and she flat out told me i looked gorgeous so i just told her thanks and that it was kinda embarassing and walked away as she entered her class.
today is one of those days i just want to go home and not come out, i mean to be complimented is nice and all and i can handle that but to be gawked at and hit on and looked at with lustful glances is horrible, it makes me feel dirty and shameful in a way, i mean i know in this last age it's not unusual for girls to be so crazy, seeing as this wicked generation is controlled by spirits (the whole satan's eden thing)but man it's like the girls are just as bad as if not worse than the guys. i just really fight with becoming upset and letting it get to me.
this was weighing heavy on my heart and needed a place to rant about it. i don't see myself as even remotely goodlooking, or handsome or anything to even call home about (I have some self esteem issues when it comes to looks). i just ask you all pray for me on this, as it has made my day the type where i dread walking down the hall because of what will be said or done next.