Dissapointed...

[Sara]

I looked forward to this summer ever since the spring 2005 semester began at school... i had so many plans!!! Obviously, the Lord had other plans for me. Yesterday i found out that i was required to take a summer microbiology class, its laboratory, and a political science course. I felt like screaming!!! First of all, i was really worried. I didn't know how on earth i was going to pay for those classes. My scholarship money arrives at the beginning of every fall semester, so, yeah. Then i just told the Lord to have his way in this whole situation. I went to the financial aid office at school told them my situation and a lady that overheard my conversation told me that there had been money saved by the university for people like me... so the cl***es will be taken care of. I don't understand why... i would just love to stay home and dedicate more of my time to the Lord!!! My plans were to do just that... i have been straying from his presence so much recently with all that school puts me through... yet, i pray and ask the Lord to have His will be done... and He does this... This is what He has for me, and this is what i will do. Yet it hurts my heart sooooo much to know that i have to go to school during the summer. To those of you who don't go to school, let me explain... IT'S HORRIBLE!!! Even more because i'm an over achiever and have to have straight As... i have to keep almost a perfect GPA or i will be removed from some Dean's list that i'm in... The truth: i don't care. Yet, i know that if the Lord has provided a way for me to go to school, then he will want me to succeed also... and if he wants me to succeed, then He'll also make a way.... so the point??? I feel like crying!!! I'm so tired of school, yet there is just no way out of it all, i have to do it. *Sigh* I only have one option and that is to trust the Lord... after all, He did promise to never leave me. I feel better now... God bless you all for taking the time to read this, if you did... :)

*Sara

[hollikins84]

Aw, Sara, I know what you're saying. I started to go to Indiana University, but the school was so full of worldly filth, I couldn't stand to stay there. I hope you're at a better school.

I've always been a straight-A student. So, I completely understand the pressure it puts on you to be perfect. You have to work so much harder than everyone else that it's hard to find time for the Lord. It drives you nuts!

I just thought of this, but perhaps, Sara, there is going to be someone at school this summer who will accept the Message. What a blessing that would be! That would make that long summer so worth it!!!!

Whatever reason it is, Sara, the Lord's gonna work it for your good and that thought can be the bright spot in your summer!

[Bekah]

I have a friend who's in collage she's been there for about 2 years
the first year she did really good she came to church all the time she's
even broght some of her friends she made good grades,
but this past year she has been sliping away from church she don't
come very offten and her exsuce is she has to study for a teast or write a paper, she got a boyfriend from school, and he keeps her away
it's sad, she was in a play at school and lets say she didn't play a very nice part in it and i was shocked becaue, this was the girl that was at a church meeting or youth camp and our cirlce of friends she was the brave one.
I'm not saying this will happen to you but, always keep God first in your life
( it already sounds like you do ) Dont let saint wiggel his way in your mind.
I have never been in collaga before so i don't know what it's like. I i'm sure it's hard and i will be praying for you

[Sara]

I've always been a straight-A student. So, I completely understand the pressure it puts on you to be perfect. You have to work so much harder than everyone else that it's hard to find time for the Lord. It drives you nuts!

Thanks for letting me know you understand... That made me feel better... obviously nobody at school could ever understand me. I mean, the whole situation i'm in. My university is just like that. We have two campuses though. I am in the newer one, which is the quieter one. Everything big usually happens over there, so my campus is not that loud. I'll be going to the big one this summer though... and in the fall too... keep me in your prayers!!! All of you... =) (thanks for replying hollikins!)

*Sara

[Sara]

I have a friend who's in collage she's been there for about 2 years
the first year she did really good she came to church all the time she's
even broght some of her friends she made good grades,
but this past year she has been sliping away from church she don't
come very offten and her exsuce is she has to study for a teast or write a paper, she got a boyfriend from school, and he keeps her away
it's sad, she was in a play at school and lets say she didn't play a very nice part in it and i was shocked becaue, this was the girl that was at a church meeting or youth camp and our cirlce of friends she was the brave one.
I'm not saying this will happen to you but, always keep God first in your life
( it already sounds like you do ) Dont let saint wiggel his way in your mind.
I have never been in collaga before so i don't know what it's like. I i'm sure it's hard and i will be praying for you

Bekah, you have no idea how hard and difficult it really is... i might have my ups and downs, don't sleep much, and all, but i have managed to keep going to church every Wednesday night and Sunday morning. I have come to realize that God is the one who will grant me the grades i get... without Him i am nothing. I could study all night, for two or three nights before a test, but if i don't have Him, all it takes is one snap of His fingers and i forget it all!

I invite people at school to church... but to tell you the truth, no one seems to be interested in the things of God today. The youth out there is just... OUT THERE. The skirts and the long hair scares away everyone! Hehhe, well, that's not funny, but you know how it is. I'm like an alien at school... it's so hot that everyone is dressed like a Victoria's Secret model, then you see me and well... yeah. =) I thank the Lord for giving me the strength to overcome, because even if i ever wanted to go back into the world, there is a stronger pull, i can't explain it, but it doesn't even let me think of that ever happening.

About your friend's boyfriend situation. Bekah that is the hardest test that can come to you while in college. You take cl***es where guys are at times older and ready to graduate and have a family of their own. They see a girl who is different from the rest... and you know what happens. That is one of the tricks of the devil and it takes a real close relationship with the Lord to be strong in those areas.

Pray for me... i must admit that at times, i have looked into things i shouldn't have, but once again i repeat, there is a stronger pull that will not let me fail the Lord... that alone is my strength... I'll be praying for your friend!

*Sara

[hollikins84]

Sara,

Always feel free to vent. To me, college is one of the nastiest places a Christian can be, but once you get through it, you won't have to go back! Just keep hanging on. You amaze me. :)

[Sara]

Sara,

Always feel free to vent. To me, college is one of the nastiest places a Christian can be, but once you get through it, you won't have to go back! Just keep hanging on. You amaze me. :)


ThAnKs!!!

*Sara

[Bekah]

Sara,

Always feel free to vent. To me, college is one of the nastiest places a Christian can be, but once you get through it, you won't have to go back! Just keep hanging on. You amaze me. :)


And you will have a awsome Testamony!

[hollikins84]

That's right, Bekah!

[Sara]

Thanks girls!!! Pray for me! (it seems to get harder as the days go by...) But, He will overcome through me!

*Sara

[hollikins84]

Will do, Sara!